Date: 2009-05-09 04:08 Subject: Thank you Security: Public Mood: amused

Thank you my livejounal for being that outlet i need sometimes. i know im probably the worst friend ever to you, and only come to you when i feel like i need to let it out somewhere. Its going to keep on going this way, and i just want to say i appreciate it.

Crenshaw

Date: 2009-05-09 03:44 Subject: The Purloined letter Security: Public Location: home Mood: sad Music: Boats and Birds?

"a fanatic is someone who redoubles his efforts while losing sight of his goal. " - Georges Santayanna

It feels like the more effort i put in, the harder it is.  Its frustrating when sometimes all you can do is talk about other guys, to ME of all people. Do you even realise what that feels like to me?i guess you do sometimes, but you still do it anyway, and as much as i want to be there to hear you out...its hard... i want to tell you this, but im too afraid that it will just scare you off. What does it take? too much commmitment and you back off, to little and you guilt trip me for not putting in enough. i asked you if you felt that same way about me as i do about you, and you said youre getting there....i know we said we're taking it slow, but are we taking it slow because we dont want to rush, or are you so scared of a commitment that youd rather make the process indefinetly long? and this other guy, why? seriously, why...one more thing, its very hard to help someone feel better, sleep more, etc when they dont want to try yur suggestision. I know sometimes youre not really looking for suggessions, but if youre going to complain about something, and then not take up my solutions, and then complain that youre still feeling like that, then i cant really do anything, as much as i realllly want to

i really want this to work cos i genuinely do like you. i just wish you wanted it to work as much as i do.


and you two, why the hell is this happening? cant you freaking talk to each other? instead one of you uses me as a vessal to unload unhappy feelings on, instead of unloading them in his direction? and the other is never there to talk to, and hardly listens to reason? Its sad i know, but youve become a mere provider for me, i find myself happy that you provide me with money, and dont seek anything else, is that really the way its going to be for the rest of our lives?  and you, i said i would set you guys up for counciling or something, but neither wants to, what is that, fucking ego? how about put aside the ego, you always tell me that i have to be humble, etc etc, well what this about that?




The purloined letter.

Date: 2009-01-29 21:46 Subject: Stupid moment Security: Public Mood: depressed

Ever had a really really stupid moment?

like REALLY REALLY stupid?

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!2#$%^&*()IEUHNWVJN

Date: 2008-12-14 01:33 Subject: How i met your mother Security: Public Location: home Mood: bored

If you are one to read my "blog" you know by now that i rarely update. Its still true, this isnt so much an update as much as it is my own personal-public  record of catch phrases and sayings from how i met your mother. NPH is really good at potraying a straight guy.

Neil Patrick Harris as:"Barney Stinson "

"Its going to be Legendary!"
"Its going to be Legen-   wait for it.............- dary!"
"Its going to be Legen -  wait for it, and i hope youre not lactose intolerant cos the next part of that word is - Dairy!"

"Suit up!"

"What up!"

"Bro code article #89, The Mum of a bro is always off limits, but the Step-mum of a bro is fair game, if she initiates it, and/or  is wearing at least one article of leopard print clothing"

"Awsome!"

"That means she's ugly, she's ugly, and she ugs in the ugly"

"In my experience, the way this normally goes is, we lie here for awhile, make a little awkward chit-chat.....then i make up some cabinet meeting/heart surgery/rocket test flight i've got to be at, slip out of the apartment, and never call you again"

"first we need to pick someone up at the airport"

Ted to Barney: " So when you said that we need to pick someone up at the airport...you meant we need to pick someone up, at the airport?"

"I didnt break any state or federal laws, but i think i broke another, much higher law, the  Bro Code"

" Bro Code article #1, Bros before Hoes."

"Bro Code article #34, bros cannot make eye contact during a devil's three-way....two dudes"

within Barney's Imagination:
Ben Franklin: "But bro seriously, i called dibs on that wench, you cod peice blocked me"

"what's that left hand? Right hand sucks? Word!"

"what's that? self five?Nice! We out.."



and there is so many more




 

Date: 2008-09-24 03:37 Subject: rant.. Security: Public

evidently i invested a tad more emotion than you did.
i cant believe for all of that, thats all youre taking away from this.
thanks for convincing me that i really dont need to feel sad.

Date: 2008-03-18 23:28 Subject: Energy is required to overcome the inertia of an object at rest Security: Public Location: home Mood: emo

"we higher primates can be utterly helpless to biological urges, its a anthropomorphical inevitability" - Dr. Temperance Brennan  in Bones



probably the most emo ive been in awhile....

It has come to my own attention that i've hit a standstill in my life. i dont know why, but recent events have left me feeling like the world if moving on, and im still here.

Feeling marginally better though..thank you, don't know what I'd have done without being able to talk about this.

need someone in my life....

Date: 2008-02-04 21:49 Subject: Flashlights for sale Security: Public Location: Home Mood: contemplative

Hi everyone, in line with one of my hobbies, torchlights/flashlights, im going to be selling these. These will be made to order, which would usually take me 1 to 2 days depending on how busy i am.
















This monster is putting out roughly 100 lumens.In comparison the maglite solitaire puts out 1 lumen.
It is as waterproof as the standard army  "L" light. It also comes with another reflector that is not pictured here, which focuses the beam much more so it can go further.

There will also be a removable glow in th dark o-ring around it for easy finding in the dark.

I have two protoype models out there with Jason and Tushar, who are both in BMT now, and feedback from them is put into each succesive unit.

This will cost tentatively $25 ,but that is subject to change. I also have AA to "C" type battery convertors available for $3  dollars each, or $5 dollars a set of two. Payment will be by cash, or by paypal if you want. I can can snail mail it to you but that will cost extra, best is meet, you pass cash i pass light. Contact me for anything...or leave comment, or message here.

for anyone who understands anything about lights...the specs are
Cree X-RE lamp P4 bin
Running on 750ma.
Textured reflector for smooth beam.
Internal parts will be Epoxied together, and where there are electronics, Thermal Glue is applied for heat management.

I will get a comparison shot of this beam with a regular "L" torchlight beam soon.

Date: 2007-12-12 12:21 Subject: hellafunnyadvertismentcampaign Security: Public Location: Office (!) Mood: impressed

Saw this on the intenet, thought i would share it, funniest thing ive seen in awhile....



then this came out



then this



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Date: 2007-11-21 21:01 Subject: yayness! Security: Public Location: Home Mood: artistic Music: Josh Groban - Panis Angelicus

Josh Groban's Christmas Album has Panis Angelicus, I have been looking for his rendition of it since i first listened to him on "Closer"
Why? cos i covered this song in p6! its nice to hear it from as good as singer as him

The guest mediacorp Celebrities/actors on Deal or no deal are VERY irritating, time to off the tv.. poor David Gan, he actually seems like quite a cool guy....

Anyway....

Date: 2007-11-20 11:29 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Location: WORK! Mood: confused Music: All I Know Of Love -duet Barbra Streidsan And Josh Groban

That is actually a really nice song......

Im feeling confused, yet again, argh!

Just an update, im no longer in CJ

My plan is to go business law in poly next year

just so you know.......

Date: 2007-10-17 13:55 Subject: The Results Security: Public Location: CJC library Mood: DETERMINDED (grrr) Music: The Prayer - Josh Groban featuring Charlotte Church

Results are back...

ive got:

Econs:  E
Lit:         D
Geog:   S
Maths:  D
Gp:        S

Basically, 3 passes, 2 sub passes

Okay, they are not exactly fantastic, thier not any where near as good as i would have liked to get, but its s start. At very least i didnt fail fail anything. It a glimmer of hope that I just might be allowed to stay in CJC and complete my A level course.JS did say i am supposed to pass everything, but hopefully.......(fingers crossed) 

 Sure, these arent the grades i want to be getting for A's but its a start yes?

Another encouraging thing, Mr Fahy expects alot more of me, and i do admit i feel like ive sort of let him down, let myself down as well in literature. Whats really wierd, i scored better in paper 1 than paper 4, so it appears being creative is actually detrimental towards your marks. HMMMMM. Either way i resolve to pay a great deal more attention to literature from now on.I guess ill just take this post to express that im really deeply thankful to have him as my form teacher, and my literature teacher, and indeed a mentor of sorts.

That being said, im still going for the orientation facil interview later at 4.15. I just have issues with the time, i want to gym, and thats right smack in the middle of it. oh well

I think im going to start selling those Army angled torchlights, ie: those green "L" types, but im going to modify them. The stock will be the standard "D&G" army grade stuff, but ill be updraging them to LED bulbs. Most Likley they will be putting out up anywhere from 80 - 100+ lumens when im done with them. There will possibly also be two versions, the 5 mode variable output  version and the one mode high out put.  Prices will be under 20$, possibly quite abit lower than that...more details as my project really gets underway. Of course it will just be by word of mouth, and internet, im not going to start an actual store.

Date: 2007-10-11 13:18 Subject: The Aftermath Security: Public Location: CJC library com lab Mood: le Sian Music: Black Sabbeth - Iron Man, Megadeth- hanger 18

" I sense you Jedi"- Reborn in Jedi Academy

I have been playing the Jedi Academy Download demo, because im using my money for otherstuff and i dont torrent, i should probably start. Either way, there is a savage pleasure in Installing a disemberment mod so that when you cut up rodians and reborns, they actually slice up into 10 odd pieces. Good thing the disemberment mod works on the demo. "My saber_dual4 lightsaber" and "playmodel kyle"  allow me to slice up the bad guys more realistically , providing me a means to vent frustration. Chao says that kottr2 if very fun, i shall have to try it.


Aparently the promo results are going to be terrible. According to rumors today,  20% of the J1 cohort passed econs. Aparently NO one knew that youre supposed to include demand-supply market price determination and all that nonsense in a Market Failure Question. Aparently Geography was quite horrible too. And i think my maths has dropped two grades. How insane is having to do more topics than midyears, with half an hour less time? the killer being that the paper was actually quite easy, but lack of time meant that certain questions that were allocated less marks had to be skipped, and question that required more than abit of thinking had to be skipped.  Dont even think about re-checking your answers. So there goes the only hopeful A. My end of year lit is also going to be so much worse than midyears, the damn question for othello panicked me, unseen also, couldnt write anything constructive for like half an hour, hopefully what i wrote will at least avoid a fail, paper 4 should do better, probably though, so with some luck, ill have avoided anything below a D

Im soooo screwed, if i get kicked out of cj:

I have no idea what else i can do with my life

I have to finish NS first in any case, that means ill be already be 20 before i can pursue anything else, like say i go to poly or something, ill already be 24 at least by the time i finish, and after uni ill be 28ish? omg ill be ol-fking-d

I probably will not have time for srt youth company next year which really sucks because i got in thru auditions, and my parents are willing to pay, needless to say, i reeeeeally want to be there, and even if i do ill miss at least 4x2 sessions (minimum 2 months bmt, 1 session a week) so thats 8 sessions,which will be the intro, ice breaker, and getting to know you, etc sessions.

I wont be able to be with my crew as much  cos of army

Gill will kill me

 EDIT: Sondra says shell kill me too


on the whole you can see that the personal marginal costs of me getting kicked out greatly out weigh the personal marginal benefits. As for externalities, i would say im neither a good with positive externalities, nor negative externalities. so therefore, the SMC abd SMB graphs are the same as the PMC and PMB ones. SEE , i DID study

bottom line is

ARGH!!#$%^&





 

Date: 2007-09-25 12:22 Subject: WTF!!! Security: Public Location: Library Mood: **sniff**

Ironically the only thing i gained from studying Hamartia was to learn that when it comes to Lit, mine is the classical Hubris.... Lit Paper one was reallly bad..

Crenshaw

ps: ARGHHHHHH!

Date: 2007-07-30 12:33 Subject: (no subject) Security: Public Location: CJC Learning Resource Center Mood: blah Music: Shake your rump - Beastie Boys

  " its got an inherent lack of light" - Some guy on Criminal Minds in response to "Why are you afraid of the dark?"

do you get the feeling that pretty soon, if not already, critics are going to..uh critisize.. all these crime series (is there a plural form for series?) as being all the same, cliche and pseudo scientifically tedious? anyway....

Zomgs, livejournal has been ressurected, more out of boredom and of not-wanting-to-do-french then anything else.
Maybe i shall start posting more, and reading more.Maybe. 

Fahy's lesson was interesting today. Econs was terrible. Geog coming up in 20mins.

Yesterday was 1T03 class bbq. I  cooked a fair bit although i dont eat.

If you look up feeling detached, youll get me.

hint: theres an easter egg here somewhere.



ARGHHHHHHHHH! You Backstabbing bastard i didnt do anything so fuck off My Consceince is clear, i hope yours is killing you.
(venting)

Date: 2007-05-09 22:32 Subject: Something i thought of Security: Public

Wisdom is casting a stone at the devil

Date: 2007-04-23 12:08 Subject: Zomgs, im 18 Security: Public Location: School (my com is not working URGH) Mood: woots Music: none (Library Larhxxx, cannot)

" I hate him as i do hell pains" - Iago

okay alot has happend in the pass few eons or so that i have not updated. But ill just blog about Saturday

As in the title to this, ZOMGS im Legal, eigh-fucking-teen, zomgs. I dont want to get any older. Saturday started with Drama. I went for drama, late, but i am somewhat entitled am i not? firstly because it was my birthday and also because i took the liberty to buy pliers cum wire cutters for pro.. i mean logistics. I read Demetruis' part because our demetrius was MIA. 

Night was more fun. Met up with Jason at his place first. Hung around, and had subway at orchard hotel. Him a cheese steak, and me a veggie delight. Like day and fucking night. Then met Sarah (ooi) at orchard mrt, and went to CHIJMES. We went to bobby's, where i started with a blue Lagoon. The highlight i would say was the Flaming Lamborghini was the highlight ( thats gooooood shit) Sarah Jas and me each had one. only sucked becaused i had to sober up before having to get home at 11.30 (wtf right?), because, it leads to the next point.

I moved house! i now live in Toa Payoh, i cant remember the address. But i lurrve my new room. Its damn small, but i think the TV on the wall makes up for it. Its my " Trump" as Jenn said. My Bed folds into a sofa ( or sofa unfolds to bed, either one) but its more comefortable and easier to use then any other sofa i have ever encounted. Sunday was speant moving the rest of our stuff to the new house. 

For the record, i now take bus 153 to school in the morning. and i can leave my houser at 7am and still be on time.

Date: 2007-03-11 00:47 Subject: Updateing for the sake of it Security: Public Location: Home Mood: sleepy Music: Violin Concerto, No. 3: "Strassburg" K. 216, 3rd Movement -

quote of the entry:
I'm not vegetarian because i love animals; I'm vegetarian because I hate plants. - A. Whitney Brown

alot has been happening lately, too much really, better then staying at home and rotting though, which i hope i wont be doing for the holidays. So far only got plans for wednesday...

I finalyl got a blazer, its nice, spiffy, and wore it to a wedding dinner, it looked quite glam. i like it.

Rockafella 3 was ZOMG awsome, that Ruben guy is godlike. Jenns band got  best musicality, they played smoke on the water, zomgs good.Elaina looked really cute on stage with that bass guitar. Sarah (ooi)  looked like she really meant business with them drumsticks (not chicken).
Xiao an's band obviously rocked, i need to get thier songs.



I miss our friendship we had, you said we're okay now, but its not the same yet. Youre leaving, i hope we get a chance to make it up. It would be dreadful to lose our friendship.



Sarah (not ooi):
i know youll always be there, i really really really treasure what we have, i honestly dont know what i would have dont without you as my friend all these years. We dont talk, or go out very often, but i know i can always count on you, and im sure you know you can always count on me. *hugggggss*

Date: 2007-02-11 21:59 Subject: stuff 4got, stuff happend. Security: Public Location: Home Mood: sleepy Music: Michael Bublé - Feeling Good

quote of the entry:
"Lord Ronald said nothing; he flung himself  from the room, flung  himself upon his horse and rode madly off in all directions."- Stephen Leacock

Last entry i forgot to write about the day Sarah came over to my place.(as in my since primary school friend) initially planned to go out, but then decided that it would actually be more fun to rent a movie and watch it at my place.We had planned to rent step up. We never actually for round to doing it though, instead we went to NTUC to buy mozerella cheese and tomatoes. We made pizza! it was fun. I love cooking with Sarah! its always so fun. Twice so far. FIrst time it was Gratin, and this time it was pizza! fun fun, and YUMMY. Ended up, we watched Eurotrip!, one of the funniest movies ive watched, i dont care what anyone says about the level of intelligence and general dumbness of the movie. Watch it with an open mind, and youll have fun.

Yesterday was an enourmously fun day.Firstly had our second dance meeting. Many things discussed.also tried this snack thing called poppycock. It was damn nice.

Anyway, after, went home, and then went to Jenn's house for her birthday party. The cab driver couldnt find his way, so it took come time to get there even from Bishan MRT. Regardless, i got there around 7. Bummed around for awhile, and Jenn ordered pizza for later.The party itself was zomgs fun. So many cool people were there. HIghlights include some dancing, curtesy of claudio's ipod. also alot of guitar playing going on. That was fun too. I also finally got round to watching sky high on the disney channel. I think ill watch it again though cos i couldnt hear half the dialogue.We also played i nver with the bottle of vodka that elaina bought. I sitll like bacardi better. It was a night that ended (for em anyway) for the police showing up. Aparently there was a complaint of some sort. Sarah ( ooi this time) was told to sit the fuck down, in her drunken-high. it was pretty funny. They took down our names and addresses. At a younger point in my life this would have scared me more. Now i know that this is pretty much just a formality. Dad came around soon after that, so i went inside to say bye to everyone. Headed home after that. it was a fun night, but it wasnt Jenn's actual birthday, so ill be giving her her present on thursday. 15 february.

Date: 2007-02-04 23:26 Subject: Finally, an update. Security: Public Location: Home Mood: Happy, but tired Music: Ciara feat. Chamillionaire - Get Up

quote of the entry:
"Contraceptives should be used on every conceivable occasion" - From The Last Goon Show of All

Okay, where to start? so much has happend since the last time i updated. I shall not talk about my wonderful wonderful class, because a post wouldnt do it justice unless it was a post on its own.

Last Saturday and Sunday (saturday was the practice, the second one, the one in which we actually finished the choreo, Sunday was the performance), the rest of the HHKSpore crew people,. well not everyone, just Adeline, Firda, Lim Zhen,Adam,Derek and Me, we did this modeling-dance performance thingy for IP zone. I wouldnt normaly sink to such levels as Ip zone, but hey, its the experience of having to choreo the whole thing, and being professional about it all. The first performance was crappy,we all missed the cues because the MC's mic was so loud that we couldnt hear the music. Then after missing cues, Derek went into a freeze for no aparent reason (we found out later he thought we missed another cue, so he was trying to cover, actually he wasnt supposed to do that yet) and all. But the second performance was good. This was also my debut on-stage magic act. Really short though.

School is boring, thank God for my awsome class.(and also for various other people not from my class who make it fun)

On saturday, the one that just passed was the 1T02 class bbq. What one helluva Logistics nightmare. We were stuck at Giant buying stuff, which everyone INCIDENTLY still owes me money for, thats why im so freaking broke ( that and the fact that i bought bacardi). The guy delievering food nearly left us cos they didnt have money to pay, it was with Nanda who was with us at parkway. Luckily we have a X-country runner, Rey,he took the money and ran all the way there. Thank god we got the food. We then tried to start the fire. It was retarded cos the Charcol we bought was all nicely cut into huge chunks, like paper weights or something, no small peices to start with, so the fire took while to start. After everything was alright, we played touch rug abit, although i dont think we really got it, so we should be playing it again tmr during break. After, Debbie and me  went to Get ice. that was fun.Debbie and me discoverd that we are very entertaining to each other, right Debz, lol.  So the after the usual bbq stuff. We left around 10ish, and i took 966 home.My favourite busses are now 961, and 966, there go across like the WHOLE of singapore,and its a direct bus home.

Today, i went out at first with parents for lunch, then Joined Jenn at orchard. I went the the Library and borrowed batman: No man's land, and a punisher comic. We then went to coffee bean to slack, well,I slacked, jenn studied. We then went shopping, Jenn bought a really nice PINK sweater, and a top ( im not sure if its called a shirt). Its always fun to hang out with Jenn. :) the usual topics were discussed. :)

To everyone, im sorry i didnt update for so long, been uber uber busy with eveything, ill try to update more kae? and JERILYNNN! where are you!? youre never online anymore...